Monday, November 22, 2010
Ada Tetapi Tidak Mencukupi.
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
Sudah banyak yang telah diberikan.
Namun rasa seakan tidak cukup.
Sudah dianugerahi dengan nikmat yang tidak terkira.
Tetapi masih tetap merasa bahawa ada yang kurang.
Sudah mempunyai apa yang diinginkan.
Namun tidak pernah berhenti meminta.
Dasar manusia.
Kadangkala diri merasa seperti seorang abd yang tidak mensyukuri
Atas segala apa yang dilimpahi.
Saat apa yang diminta belum dikabulkan
Diri ini merasa putus asa.
Saat merasa bahawa segala apa yang menimpa diri
Terlalu berat untuk dipikul sehingga rebah.
Kata- kataMu jua sering menjadi penawar hati:
وَإِذَا سَأَلَكَ عِبَادِي عَنِّي فَإِنِّي
قَرِيبٌ ۖ أُجِيبُ دَعْوَةَ الدَّاعِ إِذَا دَعَانِ ۖ فَلْيَسْتَجِيبُوا لِي وَلْيُؤْمِنُوا بِي لَعَلَّهُمْ يَرْشُدُونَ
- Surah al- Baqarah: 186.
AyatMu membuat diri ini tahu bahawa Kau dekat.
Kau Mendengar.
Kau Menperkenankan doa HambaMu.
Tatkala itu, keyakinan mula kembali.
Akan terus berdoa dan berdoa.
Kerna ku tahu Kau Maha Mendengar.
Semoga aku, kita semua menjadi seorang hamba yang selalu bersyukur,
di kala doa tidak pernah lekang dari hidup.
She Blogged 12:46 AM
Friday, November 19, 2010
Complex.
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
Human beings are such complex creatures. The complexity of human beings comprises of their thoughts, actions, speech and many others. Feelings too, is not excluded.
Lately, a thought keeps lingering around my poor brain and it's kind of bothering me.
How can a person love someone without even knowing the other party well enough?
How can a person miss someone whom he or she does not even contact the other party on a frequent basis?
How can a person long to see the other party - even if he or she is just able to see the other party's shadow - that every single thing around the person reminds him or her about the other party?
How can one feel all of the above while knowing that the other individual may not even share the same feeling?
Is it the existence of hope that keeps the individual to continue behaving in such a way or are there other factors?
The probability of falling into a abyss of no return with hurt as a souvenir is extremely high yet human beings - where feelings is concerned - are such risk- takers. And why is that?
Mind- boggling much.
Wassalam.
She Blogged 12:06 AM
Monday, November 15, 2010
Wishful Thinking.
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
A thought just popped up in my tiny little brain just like how somebody PM- ed you while you were online. Caught you by surprise.
What if, - just what if - we crossed each other's paths, without us even realising it. Would things turn out differently if we knew?
Wassalam.
She Blogged 3:22 AM
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Achluophobia.
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
Just moments ago, I was preparing to put myself to sleep, literally I mean.
Well, there are a few things that could be considered as a ritual for me to go through before going to sleep and they are: Closing the windows, going to the toilet, put my handphones beside me and turning on the table lamp.
And just now, after the aboved three had been done, I turned myself to my green table lamp and switched it on but there was no light shining from the bulb. This was when I realised that the bulb had blown.
With that, a thought made its way to my little brain. There will be no light to accompany me through the night. Worry starts to come by and say hi to me. It informs that the room will be dark without the light from the table lamp. How would I be able to sleep?
Yes, I do sleep with the lights on. With the table lamp's light, yet often during the examinations' period, the normal ceiling lights would accompany me. Sometimes, I do wonder why I prefer to have at least a little light to accompany my night. Is it due to the fear of the darkness? Hmm.. I'm not sure about that but one thing that I am really sure of is that I just don't like the situation of not being able to see and the thought of not being able to see my own hands is worse. It terrifies me. I wonder, is it due to fear that the dark brings about uncertainty or just a matter of preference or is it a result of an action continuously being carried out till it becomes a habit that caused me to behave and act in such a way?
Anyway, as for tonight, the normal ceiling lights will definitely be my companion for the night.
Achluophobia: The fear of the dark is a common fear among children and to a varying degree is observed for adults. Fear of the dark is usually not fear of the darkness itself, but fear of possible or imagined dangers concealed by the darkness.
Wassalam.
She Blogged 2:57 AM
After Much Hibernation.
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
It has been quite a long time since I last updated my blog.
Well, you can conclude that I am such a lazy person by observing the dynamics of this blog to the extend that the laziness is my stumbling block for me to constantly update and I admit to that.
Yet, as time goes by, especially when I start to live abroad, I realised that I like to ponder on the things that happened in my life and these thoughts of mine are often expressed in words which are often jotted down in my handphone.
Often, these ramblings of mine will be posted at my Facebook - that are often being reflected by my constant updates of status - but recently, I found that Facebook is too public a place for me to constantly jot down my thoughts, my feelings.
And for this very reason, I decided to start writing again, at this place, in this blog. I can't promise that I will constantly update this humble blog yet I will try. With the hope that the Facebook would not be flooded with my ramblings.
I suppose that this will be it for now and maybe I will return soon. Real soon.
Wassalam.
She Blogged 12:58 AM